As I’m writing this letter, I am sitted under a large apricot tree, the one I planted with grandpa and thought nothing of it. Birds are chirping and singing like stage performer’s. The sun is hidden behind a few clouds, fighting its way to be seeing and felt. The gentle waves of the morning breeze is striking my soft skin. See, I am supposed to be studying for an exam, but my attention drifted elsewhere as is the norm. For some reason, I felt like this is the perfect moment to do some self-reflection. I mean, it’s not like I have an exam to study for.
◆Dear mini me, through the lense of a young child, being different is difficult and frowned upon. One writer said: “the world tends to see what is different as something wrong as if anything ‘abnormal’ is something needing to be fixed” the writer continues: “if I were to see myself through the eyes of the world, I’d be frightened to look at myself in the mirror.” You’ve always being the rose amongst thorns, the white cat amongst black dogs. The worst part of being different is not understanding why. So dear mini me, it’s ok to be different.
◆You hate playing outside, getting dirty, participating in sport activities, you think something is wrong because every child does that. Instead, you prefer something more relaxing, engaging in activities that take you to your fantasy world (where you reside 80% of the time). Its ok to get lost in a book, it’s ok to watch old sitcoms including black and white movies and It’s ok to enjoy the company of the elderly, to find wisdom in their advice to laugh outrageously at their jokes. It’s ok to sit outside, meditate and be one with nature even at such an early age. It’s ok to be an old soul,. It’s ok to be dreamy, to have one foot in the real world and one foot in the next, that’s what I call striking a balance.
◆You realised from an early age that you are highly intuitive, not only does it scare you but you don’t know what to make of it. Dear mini me, it’s ok to see and feel things that go beneath and beyond life’s surface. Its ok to explore the depths of your emotions that run deeper than the oceans. Just like your emotions, those waters are endless. Listen to your intuition, swim in those waters. As you get older, you will realise that those things will give you a unique perspective of day to day dealings and the ability to understand and feel what others are feeling. However, you are going to need to learn to protect yourself from empathic overload. You naturally feel deeply, but theres only so much emotion you can take before feeling overwhelmed. As you grow older and are well in your adulthood, you will feel like people are using you as an emotional bin, throwing all of their problems at you. You are an imperfect human being, theres only so much you can take. Coming across as insensitive is not the solution, nor is distancing yourself and disappearing. Due to your constant need to reach out to those in need and in pain, you will be a doctor, and patients won’t just be coming to you for healing, they will be coming to you when they are hungry, when they lost their loved ones through death and otherwise, they’ll come to you for several reasons that has nothing to do with your proffession. Note to self: avail yourself, it’s not about you.
◆ Expressing yourself does not come easily. That is why you gravitate towards the artistic world: theatre; music; contemporary dance; books; writing and foreign languages those are areas in life you are most comfortable in, areas that finely express who you are. You reveal to the world a glimpse of what you want them to see and hide the rest from the human eye. One minute you are talkative and confident, the next minute you are shy and quiet. But dear mini me, its ok to be different. It’s ok to over analyse situations, to read between the lines, to believe in miracles, the world says you can’t I say you can and it’s ok.
◆ The better part of your childhood right up to your late teens you are too soft and feminine to fend for yourself. But dear mini me, you will outgrow that weakness. You will realise the deep well of personal strength, resilience and capability that lies within you. You will be strong enough to fend for yourself and most importantly, fend for others.
◆ It is difficult for you to say ‘I love you’ to the people you truly love, and it’s ok. Remember to always demonstrate your love through your actions. You would rather show your love than say it meaninglessly.
◆ It’s ok to look and come across as serious, detached, insensitive and matter of fact, while deep down you are one big bowl of fluffy cotton candy. It’s ok to be misunderstood. Dear mini me, you will learn how to smile more even at strangers and you will learn that you are a confidently shy (sometimes socia) bubbly introvert and it’s ok to be different.
◆ Never stop walking with Jehovah, don’t walk away from his love and guidance. The world has nothing good to offer, it all looks fancy and tempting, but no one will ever tell you what happens behind the scenes. Don’t be too curious to find out. Stick to Jehovah and you will truly know and experience the real meaning of love, contentment and happiness in this darkened world.
Dear mini me, it’s ok to be a complex, dreamy creature who’s full of love